Chilling

Glad weekend is with us. Weather not brilliant, but company great. Had a busy last 2 weeks, but came through it ok.
Feeling quite proud if myself.
Just chilling, eating, reading, and drinking, not alcohol yet!!!!

Vacation

A couple of pics from iPhone.

Camera

Now the proud owner of Nikon D3200.
Still getting to grips with all the settings, and modes.
First impressions, its a wonderful piece of kit. Just got the 18 to 55m lens, but it seems very good.
Need to get out, and about now to try it out.
Will post pics as soon as I am able.

Flat

Woke up feeling very flat, my new word for feeling low.
I don’t know what has triggered this, wish I did. Don’t feel like doing much today.
The last couple of weeks have been very good, at work, and at home.
I know know I have to accept these periods of feeling flat. I’m not going to fight it, as I used to do.
I know I have people around me that understand what I go through, I’m very grateful to these people.
My wife is very supportive, and helps when I need it, and leaves me alone, when I so desire.
Monica, and Wendy are my closest friends in the world, and are there for me if I, and when I need them.
It is very comforting to know I have wonderful support.
Hopefully the day will get better.

Not good

10:19 It’s now 10.19. Been up since 9.00. Had a awful nights sleep. Although I have showered, and got dressed. I don’t feel like being part of anything today. Feeling really down, and quite emotional.
I know deep down I shouldn’t be worrying.
Now I’m crying.
Can’t seem to get into positive frame of mind. Bloody hell I’m so fed up.
Why oh why am I still getting times like this?
Even with all the support I have got, just sometimes it still feels its not enough. But deep down I know these people are working wonders for me.
I’m trying to think positive, but only negative thoughts are there.
I’m feeling like a failure again.
Dry my eyes, and drink my coffee.

Tbc………

Janet, and i went out for lunch, very pleasant.
Although my mind wasn’t where it should have been, I felt better for being out.
We had arranged to go out for lunch, and I pushed myself to go. A personal goal, which I overcame.
Back indoors still feeling similar to this morning.
Maybe I have to accept how I’m feeling, and not fight it.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

Sunshine

The sun is shining
It’s brightness so amazing
Not touching, but feeling its presence
The warmth all around

A life giver for sure
To be without for half a day
The darkness falls upon us
We wish for the light

It’s a long time coming
The waiting is almost over
We catch a glimpse, is it there?
Yes, just barely

Our hearts rejoice at the glory
Our eyes are open
We relish the new day
The sun is shining

Today

Life is a very short path we take
We wonder of its complexity.
The sights and sounds
The fragrance all around

Seldom giving a thought
To what life is all about
Hark the bird is singing
Daybreak is upon us

Look at what we are blessed with
A full day to do as we wish
Saviour every minute
Time is of the essence

Let wishes become real
Take it all in its entirety
Love the moment for ever
For life is a very short path we take.